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so everyone that is so nice to me, people that loved and cared for me are leaving my side one after another. people that hate me or my hatred are coming into my life. why.
my primary school friends.
my besties in primary sch.
gracie and lavinia.
my cousin's maid..
they are all leaving me...
leaving with the people who don't really treat me as a true friend?
i know i may have forget to list out some names.. but
i just dont feel the bond...
now i know what's really like to miss someone , real badly.
i didnt treasure time. its my fault.
i miss them. and i want them back into my life..
life is so empty w/o someone to talk to or to lean on..
i am losing everything...
what do i gain?

=(

I LEFT CHOIR AND HEAD HOME EARLY.. GEES.. i've got fever cum flu and fever.
doctor gave me medication. so many tablets and capsules + lozenges. she wanted to give me MC
bet ms oon wont allow. so i''ve got to FORCE MYSELF and carrying on singing.. pardon my damn husky or no voice now. =( sad... my head is so pain... ahh..
yay! my fever subsided.
i had too much fun during the hols i guess..
oh.. yes! and i bought b.day prezzie for a few ppl alrd! woo hoo!~ its DIY lol...
i made it myself. i spent 1/2 each. ahhgh.. alright... i've done my best anw.. =)
- its the first time i made some one cried...
my aunts maid.. who came over and stay for a week.
she's the one that cared alot for me.. share with me the many ghosts or kampung stories..
help me prepare my lunch .. or my daily needs.. when i opened my mouth to ask.
and the fun times we shared prank calling.. well.. is the person prank call her 1st. so i play back.. i scream at the phone and ermm... turn up the radio.. err...loads more..
she bought the little twin stars key chained that i adore. and ermm.. oHoh! I FORGET. we baked cookies together too. she even feed me medication. i know i behave like a little kid. but...
its like once in a while, right? i miss those days when i was a little kid.. so pure and innocent.
so free and easy.. no stress.. hardly any friendship or family problems..
perfect eyesight.. no need to use contacts or specs... oh well..
and with many friends right by my side. and now its all lost..LOST...
just to borrow my hp charger.. well i guess.. i was too selfish or oversensitive. i screamed at my mom and blamed her.. then my aunts maid was so appalled and upset by my actions.. she cried..
anw.. she is going to leave us tmr... i guess.. i am so sad...=( and totally leave sg in oct to visit her family after 4 years, when the contract is over.. i think i will cry.. and she will probably work in taiwan.. and i will never see her again...
- i just want to say a big sorry to you.
although.. she may not be reading this. but she's the best maid i've ever met. in my 14 yrs of life.

shucks, i always forget to change the wrong time and date in the blog.. ahh
who cares...

eheh! i wanna add this! our swensens bill was $101.95 ! haha!
ohoh! and that there's this dao and rude woman serving us.! she nv give me ice! nuts la.!
sotong! haha yilin and QQ was like saying. so rude dont serve us la. lol. sth like that!
then all of us walk so fast.. cause it was around 9.30pm when we finish our dinner.
we have a group photo taken. too!
- miss those times...
6 BRILLIANCE ROCKS FOREVER! AND EVER
2JOY TOO...err..haha..some people only la.

REBECCA AND YI LIN WAS SO FUNNY! HAHAHAH! they started helping themselves with the ice-cream..hehehehe! then wendy wanted to take a picture.. so they immeadiately use to spoon to patch to ice-cream back.. check out the holes in the lime sherbert. reb & yilin's master piece!
Edmund... dropped the spoon and then immeadiately take a new one... not knowing wendy havent taken the spoon.. tsk tsk tsk.. eventually he gave it to her ;) 

me and yi lin...in the mrt. so tired.. 10pm le ok! 

rebecca and me... at swensens. in suntec. 

ST NICS FIESTA! 11 MARCH 2006!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WENDY! =)

my aunt's maid came to stay over at my house LOL cause they going to shanghai what.. went to trim my messy hair...layered it, sort of trim my fringe too! if trim too much.. then..errr..will look damn funny!!!!
thenn rushed off to meet wendy, rebecca and yilin's mum.. cause we dont know how to go stnics.
i was late la.. sorry people.
so we went to meet yilin at her pastamania store! lol.. the food all sold out le.. by the time we reached there.. which was like 1.30pm? lol.. we walked here walked there.. we bought sausages 1st. i was like so sotong ok the whole time.. YOU WILL KNOW WHY LATER!
then i let down my hair what.. ok.. anyway... i saw some kcp ppl in st nics.. mostly guys.. "maybe they go there see girls" lol.. their intentions ahh,someone said that.. i forget who..lol....when we walked pass the mirror beside the 2 toilets... yi lin was like everyone cannot resist looking at the mirror when they walk pass.. which is quite true.. then i was like omg lor.. i look like a someone with lion's hair! ahhhhHH!HH! yi lin was saying i am short la! then i say no lor... ii tallest.. lol... then i say my results improve ok. dont look down on me ahh.. then she is like really meh? nahh i think u still the same la.. then i said i innoncent , u not innocent.. then she was like do know the opp. of innocent?! guilty la..! LOL. we continue suaning each other until we go home! LOL. so funny! then wendy bought the mashmallows with chocolate toppings.. haha was so funny .. she like a kid lor.. mouth fill with chocolates.. we were all laughing.. lol.. so cute....
THEN... SHOCKER NO.1 - SAW kcp ppl
SHOCKER NO.2- rebecca almost faint.. she was so pale... so we went to a bench and set down there while wendy and cherie went to get us some snacks. i was shock. really.. really.. shock... she couldnt see us suddenly...
SHOCKER NO. 3 - a girl was looking at the reflection of the notice board.. in bwt rebecca and me when we were sititing down. thenn..I SAW MY CLONE IN st.nics.. we only look alike from the side... she took a photo with me.. i think i look like shit la.. cause i was unprepared..
SHE : GIRL GIRL ! i look like you! can we take a picture.
ME: HER? (rebecca)
SHE : no, you.
ME: HUH?! HHUH HUHUH?? !!!
HER FRIEND: eh? can u dont smile.. dont look alike already
SHE: HUH!? then why u ask me take photo!?
ME: ERR?...huh?
my friends: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAH!SHOCKER NO.5: my contact lens fall out when i was rubbing my left eye. lucky rebecca bought the container. she took out one side of her contact lens as her eye was irritated
SHOCKER NO.6: read rebecca/wendy blog. to find out. LOL. i dun wanna type. it drives me nuts... makes me sick..
then when me and reb went walking round st nics.. i saw the same grp of ..nvm.. they dao me.. cause.. nvm..
SO THEN WE MEET EDMUND...
SHOCKER 7: when we were buying drinks.
guy: (asking reb) are u rebecca? are u rebecca?
reb: yeah
guy: are u reb? are u reb?
reb: ignored them
then next scenario.. go read her blog la...
SHOCKER NO.8
raining...
we were all drenched from head to toe...
haha..
only yilin had umbrella.
wendy and reb had long hair.. omg.. poor thing..
edmund didnt bother... as long as she is happy ;) LOLlolLOL
SHOCKER NO. 9
at the bus stop after we came out of mac to dry ourselves. - go read reb blog-
girl: eh girl can i have ur no.1 (to reb)
girl: so chio lor!!!
gangster guy: tell her say i want hor!
THEN she walked off cause her taxi come le
SHOCKER 10: WE WENT HOME AT 10PM+
we ate at swensens.. meet qi quan 1st.. initially we wanted to eat at NYCH. the food there is damn nice.. haha...the pizza so cheesyy! BUT SO EXPENSIVE! More ex then swensens
hehe.. the best part in swensens was when we were talking about some 1 in 6b and 6c the name very alike wann.. when u pronounce it.. lol. so funny. with the big boobs part.. and blahh...
and d____________ got stead blahh.. 30 year old man,can be her dad lor... everyone laughed until their stomach hurts...
WE enjoyed alot.. as part of wendy's early birthday celebration. =)
bet she enjoyed the most of all..
although all of us were like miles apart from each other.. but the bond of our friendship is so strongth and unbreakable by the distance. LOL.
had loads of fun
me and reb changed bag for a week.

i feel that i may be backstabbed.- and i will not tell anyone, who , how and why.
ok.. today in school, supposed to go for computer enrichment. but! too bad lo! esplanade thing.. so have make-up lesson. TML I MUST GO COLLECT THE FORMS! FROM MR DONT KNOW WHO?
- i sort of think that i am very extra. weird and whatever. thats probably why i feel so damn left out. how am i going to blend with the crowd. my friends are really nice.. but at times.. like when u need help or badminton or when u need a partner.. or someone to follow u somewhere like...err.nnvm... or someone to help u collect homework, or tell u what u missed for lesson, or willing to teach you when u have problem with your school work, its kind of hard to find someone. and when the day ends everybody runs. i have only a handful of closefriends, some which are from my class or i should say the majority, the rest are just casual. bestfriends? omg.. hardly.. only a few ..or maybe lesser... or evenn lesser or worse haiss...

I AM JUST A SPARE TYRE... thats what i feel........... ahhhghghhghghgghgh.