Hello! 18/12/2009 was a great day!
The peas met up for a Christmas gathering at Bugis. Each of us bought a gift that is within $10.
I received Hou Jun's gift. Inside was a green cup with a green bear which coincides with the Christmas theme !
Next we went shopping for clothes, bags, accessories and shoes at the Bugis street.
Each of us bought something. Shimin and I bought the most (As usual). We spent about a total of $50!
Well, how often you do have a chance to go on a shopping spree!! Many people have the wrong concept that poly life is like a breeze, so free and easy! Well, let me tell you that you're wrong because it depends on each and every individuals actually. We have a lot of projects and assignments to be completed too!!!
Okay.. enough said i'm going back to the topic on the shopping spreee~
I bought 1 dress, 1 top and a bag lol!!!!!
Okay.. then Erita, Shimin ,HouJun and i settled at a Cafe to have dinner.
When we left the place, we were met with utter shock and disgust.
When we were walking to the MRT some idiot started to scold us for no rhyme or reason.
(Probably because we crossed her way and she didnt like it)
However, some people just like to find trouble in public. tsk tsk.
All in all i had an enjoyable shopping spree!!
It has beeen a long long time since i bought new clothes. HEHEHE. :D

My grace is sufficient for you.
- 2 corinthains 12:9

Whenever life's burdens oppress you
And trials seem too much to face,
Remember God's strength in your weakness;
He'll give you power and grace.

Lord,
Grant me a quiet heart,
Before my examinations start.
Teach me to use my leisure hours,
To reinvigorate my powers.

My mind from day dreams liberate,
To make my studies a sacrament.
From faith in heart, in love expel.
Give me the will to concentrate.
From all distractions set free,
That in my studies i may be,
A student with this whole intent,
All failure fears that these indwell.
All from all pillows drive away,
All dark forebodings of the day.

Help me infaith to rest so deep,
That i may have untroubled sleep.
While notes and lessons I prepare,
May I not lose my zest for prayer.

So may examinations find
Each student alert in heart and mind.
Thus inward joy and peace possessing,
Examinations will prove a source of blessing.

Picture credits to Joeeng.
Thats on the 2nd day of orientation in new sch.

Whenever i walked past my old working place or my secondary school, a wave of strong nostalgia overcame me and it was so powerful that it overpowered my whole senses.
I began to feel that i miss friendships that we forged during work training, during work and even friends that i used to have in primary and secondary school..
Every friendship forged has come to a naught. Everyone drifted apart like a piece bottle fallen into a fast moving river.
No matter how hard you try, it can never be found again.
Just like the picture above, we've all began a new journey, a new life when we stepped into tertiary level.
The friendships and love that we forged from teachers and friends alike has become yet another memory and will be revived again whenever we pass by the place that we once belonged.

I found these pink balloons somewhere!
So pretty. i never held on to many balloons before!
anyway, i feel that people are getting scarier and scarier, & sometimes you dont even know what they are thinking...
i dont know if i am being paranoid or not. but even the most truthworthy person can turn their back on you anytime, anywhere should any situation arises. so scary. haha. (no, i am not saying anyone here really, i was just thinking !!! - food for thought.)

Ok, recently there has been an onslaught of events that took place in my life which isnt very pleasant & i havent shared with anyone yet and i shall never share it with anyone cause its really personal been instructed not to say too... Just that .. these problems seems to grow and new ones seemed to emerge.
I only know that i could tell all these to God and i pray that God will make a way for me. He will be my guide.
I need his strength , wisdom, guidance to lead me the way.
Even though, others may not understand but i am sure he does.

Going to give cca a miss today.
(so mind boggling cause such a lousy player like me shouldnt skip cca.. oh well but!....#$%^&*($%^&*)

The pictures taken with bestfriend on a polaroid was so nice.
Personally i feel that the tradition camera delivers the best pictures !
It can be stored and kept for a life time.
People can always relish the memories whenever they want to =)

Tired. Microeconomics test was a tad too tricky, for those who havent take the test ! heheh wwatch out for those vicious little tricks!!!!

BESTIEEEES!
After 2 presentations this week, i'm exhausted!

HUIHUI!!!!!!!!!!!

bff! hahhaa !

Yan mei =) I made 3 new friends in this CCA. Yan Mei, Hui Hui and Julia

We're a teammmm!

Remember you are destined to do better things - Be confident Valerie ! and stop hiding in a shell.
I'm always a "scaredy cat" in whatever things i do. I cannot do great things even though i wanted to. I am always on the bleachers watching everyone vying for the top 3 positions, i'm always doing backstage stuff, my hands willl turn clammy whenever i make a speech and i would shiver continuously throughout the 3 min speech.
There is one thing i clearly lacked of - Confidence.
My confidence level is very low. My team mates said that i am very concious of my every steps thats why i cannnot emerged out from the shell that i am in. Just like a tortoise who never wants to get out of its shell , just like a bird that wont want to try to spread its wings and fly.
I dont want to be like that. I've got to try. I've got to do my best so that i would be able to contribute more to the team.

This is my first sport CCA. A breakthrough from the aesthetics CCAs that i used to be in during my 10 years in KCP.

However i enjoyed myself a lot during the tchoukball game ytd. I had a feel of the sports competition atmosphere!
The immese and intense fear is just like going for SYF! lol

My team did really well , even though we trained for a few weeks, and though we came in 4th, i feel that its not that bad after all.
Other school had trained for years and months , i believe that we could unleash our potential next timeee!
OMG.

TIME TO DO PROJECT , I'll upload more pictures later.

I LOVE MY JERSEY NO. 7 hahhahahah because its a nice number ! andddd
the best thing is that my school logo is the biggest of the whole team !!!!!!!

KCPSS ALUMNI DINNER
HAD A WONDERFUL 8 COURSE MEAL.
FATSSSSSSSSS!

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO MY AWESOME BOYFRIEND!

I LOVE YOU!

Hope you like your present and thanks for the treat to swensens!

Kaki's quote at facebook is so true.

People whom you once knew became the people who i wished i never knew.
Backstabbers , liars, gossipers.
I've always regarded them as really really really good friends, people who i loved to joke with and talk to became enemies. & I don't know the reason why? If i'm insensitive in the things that i've said, i've already tried my best to change just that you couldnt seem to see it. & i really really tried. I tried to humble myself and apologise if i said smth wrong . Every little detail and action that i do is flawed in your eyes as you seemed to find every possible fault there is..I used to find that being in their presence was really fun as i never had a huge group of friends that could communicate with me really well as i used to be very introverted in Primary and Secondary school.

I know u wont ever know who i'm talking about though u are from my class. and you refers to a few of you as well.
you wont ever happen to read this post anyway so i am not hesitant on posting it.
and if you do.
Please forget all the unhappiness in the past if i have offended you in anyway.
But please dont be OVERLY sensitive.

i just want you to know that i dont owe you a living.
I am who i am. This is me. You can change me if i do something wrong, i am willing to be someone more matured and better so that when i meet people in the working life in the future i would be able to cope.
I know i may be rude, childish but sometimes you need to check yourselves too. In most instances, you just keep to yourselves and gossip amongst yourselves. What may be a  misunderstanding could evolved into hatred. IF YOU ARE NOT HAPPY WITH SOMETHING , PLEASE DO CLARIFY.
And i am not happy to be accused over and over again for something which i did not mean it or did not do.
Also, you cant mould me into the person you want me to be, cause i am who i am.
I dont live for you so i dont have to change every single bit of detail just for you.
If you cant accept me as who i am, please forget about this friendship. Though i would very much like to keep it, sometimes you've got to know your limits and when you've gone overboard, all efforts of trying to change someone to be better would turn to hatred and an acrimonious end of friendship.
Let's compromise, shall we?

Her quote is '' Have you ever looked at somebody and felt like things have changed? The gap has widened, the distance lengthed. You tried to salvage the situation but you simply have no idea what to do because you don't even know what seems to be the problem. What was once impeccable now so flawed; once so tied now so drifted''

Indeed, things have changed.
even a few people who are the closest friends of yours have changed too
and that really saddens me.






Thanks peas for all your encouragement esp joyline for sharing the word of God w me, its really assuring and comforting! Thanks!

Love is like a cushion.
Someone who you can always turn to when you falter and he/she would be the one who cushion you when you are about to fall.